'Oh my God! It's a dog! It's alive!'

     Maria Arsenijevich saw a flash of fur poking out of a yellow plastic tub. At first she thought it was a toy. There's was no sound, no movement. It couldn't be alive. It had to be a stuffed animal.
     She was sitting in the family room at the back of a "humongous" Lincoln Park home early last March. The crew of two workers from her company, Clearing Chaos — don't call them "cleaners," they are professional organizers who specialize in decluttering and dealing with hoarders — were separating the possessions of a tenant being kicked out of her rental home. Boxes and cartons were piled 6 feet tall. Piles of junk. They were two hours into a seven-day job.
     The tenant was a doctor, Anita Damodaran, 38, a pediatric physician with two young children.
     "Very charming," said Arsenijevich. "A very nice lady. Hoarders are usually extremely intelligent and very nice."
     Damodaran Damordaran was helpful, assisting the Clearing Chaos workers, pointing out which possessions were hers and should be shipped to Florida, where she was moving. What should be donated, what thrown away. Even doing some of the work herself.
     "She took this whole tower of crates and held on to a black and yellow one and was dragging it to the door to get it outside to the deck," said Arsenijevich. "I turned around to see what she was doing and saw a furry something poking out from below the yellow lid. I thought, 'It's a stuffed animal, bursting out. Because there are too many of them in the tub.' There was never any noise. No whimpering, no barking. She goes a little farther, and now I'm seeing three-quarters of a face. I wasn't sure it was a face — one side was matted with fur. The dog was popping its head out of the tub. The top was raising. I was fixated on the dog.
     "My brain was saying, 'That's a stuffed animal.' I'm staring at this thing, and my mind's going, 'Something's not right here.'"
     What was not right here was that Betty, a Portuguese water dog, had been confined to that plastic tub, a veterinarian later estimated, for about a month. Her weight had fallen from about 40 to 19 pounds. She was near death.
     Damodaran dragged the box away. That had to be a toy, Arsenijevich told herself, again.
     Then her assistant started to scream.
     "Oh my God, oh my God!" one of her crew yelled. "It's a dog! It's a dog! It's alive!"
     Arsenijevich raced over.
     "I thought it was a standard poodle. Just sitting in the crate, its legs in front, very rigid, like a statue," she said. "No movement."
     She started barking orders at her crew. One — who didn't want to use her name — was sent to the kitchen to get water. Arsenijevich called MedVet, the emergency animal hospital at Belmont and California. They told her to find a blanket and use it as a stretcher.
     And Damodaran?

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They left off God ... this time.

  

     You have to train yourself to think like a machine.

     When Facebook took down today's post, at first I bristled: obviously my courageous anti-administration stand had offended the Zuckerbergians. The boot of repression set upon my neck.

     Then I thought more, and realized: "N0 — the letterhead."

     I had begun my post with the Illinois Republican Party fundraising scam email sent out yesterday. No doubt, that caught some machine's eye, and I was flagged as trying to pass myself off as the Illinois Republican Party, which no patriotic American would ever do. So let's try again, with a new top illustration, and see if this works better:

     This survey showed up in my inbox Monday.
  

    Hmmm...
     There really isn't anything more to say, is there? You either immediately understand, having understood long ago. Or you never will.
     Honestly, I don't hear from individual Trumpy readers much anymore. Maybe hoarse from cheering. Maybe finally gave up on experiencing the world beyond the four corners of their little shoebox world of Fox News and Newsmax. I couldn't tell you. I don't miss them.

     When you click on the supposed poll, it turns out to be fishing for your email and phone information so they can hit you up for money. That's what the bottom line of much of America's descent into ruin is — a running grift, putting on a dumbshow of puppet boogeymen to wring cash out of the rubes. The politics are almost beside the point. 

     Except they're not. Dismantling the government is not just a bad thing. It's a disaster. The wholesale, unpremeditated, chaotic fashion it was conducted. First the disruption of thousands of lives, low level bureaucrats charge with mundane tasks to keep the machinery of governmente running. We'll be left with a broken box of gears and pieces, a shattered government that we'll never put back together. If we were taken over by Russia directly, I don't believe they'd destroy the country's infrastructure in this fashion. Our enemies would be reluctant to do this.

    And the Democrats are ... silent, right? Except for Gov. J.B. Pritzker in Illinois, where are the voices screaming bloody murder? Nowhere. It's a nightmare.

FDA foot-dragging might have saved your hands and you never knew it

A portion of the thalidomide, brand name Kevadon, seized in Chicago in 1962 (Sun-Times file)

     How many Frances Kelseys were let go from the federal government last week? Probationary workers were fired en masse, in a sham lunge at savings — really an enormous transfer of expenditure from organizations benefiting regular Americans to more tax savings for the rich.
     Was there one future Dr. Kelsey? A hundred? We'll never know. One would be too many.
     What? The name Frances Kelsey doesn't ring a bell? Of course not. People forget. Even though she was a hero — a local hero, too, University of Chicago Medical School, class of 1950, where she studied pharmacology.
     Dr. Kelsey was a fresh hire at the Food and Drug Administration in September 1960 when a stack of three-ring binders, each the size of a phone book, landed on her desk, busywork for the new girl who joined the agency the previous month.
     It was an application from William S. Merrell, an Ohio pharmaceutical company, for a drug it wanted to sell called Kevadon — a sedative introduced in Germany in 1957, and sold all over Europe. Approval was expected to be routine. The FDA had just 60 days to register an objection. Otherwise, Merrell could go ahead and sell the drug in the United States.
     The company already was giving samples of Kevadon, a brand name for thalidomide, to U.S. doctors; eventually 1,200 doctors would start handing out free pills to 20,000 American patients, often to pregnant women, where it controlled the nausea of morning sickness. Without telling women the pills were unapproved. A field test conducted on the unaware, all completely legal.
     But the application bothered Dr. Kelsey who, though new to the FDA, had years of experience in her field.
     "There was something a little different about this one," she later remembered thinking. Before the 60-day limit ran out, Kelsey wrote to Merrell saying its studies were "incomplete," despite their bulk. She questioned the company's methodology.
     Merrell cried foul. Executives hurried to Washington to complain about the "stubborn bureaucrat." They sent letters to her superiors, made phone calls, placed editorials in medical publications denouncing "dilatory tactics which certainly cause a loss to the industry of millions of dollars ... and even loss of life." Kelsey was being "unreasonable and irresponsible."

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Not among them either

     Lord George Gordon Byron did not, I feel safe saying, ever tramp his gray suburb on a cold February evening. Block after empty block, his only company a small dog who, though perky as always, could not herself populate a neighborhood the way, oh for instance, people could.
     Where is everybody? Inside, of course, scrolling TikTok, making dinner, watching television, or poring over the grim news — I'm not speaking of anything specific, just the general dismantling of the country by bad people. Couldn't there be another dog walker, kids playing, anything? Someone in the distance? A car? This is like one of those austerity sets that the Lyric Opera inflicts on their audiences where Valhalla is represented by a blue lightbulb and some twisted tinsel. 
    So to make things worse, I conjure up Byron ... why?
    As reproach? To torture myself. The dashing romantic hero. Profile like an alp. He swam the Hellspont — first person to do so.  Fame, intrigues, travel. To use him as a personal yardstick is nuts. 
    So why then? As comfort? That makes more sense. I was a Eugene O'Neill fan as a teen, and that snatch of Byron in "Touch of the Poet" lodged itself in my bowl haircut Ohio head:

I have not loved the world, nor the world me;
I have not flattered it's rank breath, nor bowed
To its idolatries a patient knee
Nor coined my cheeks to smiles, nor cried aloud
In worship of an echo, in the crowd
They could not deem me one of such, I stood
Among them but not of them...

     Because I was special. In my own mind, if nowhere else. How grandiose is that? I loved those lines for the same reason Cornelius Melody does in "Touch of the Poet" — trying to present himself as something better than his drab surroundings.  A gem in the muck. Brush the hay from my shoulders and quote Byron. Those lines prompted me to read "Childe Harold's Pilgrimage" — I remember nothing of the book but writing a paper on it for Bonnie Brown's World Lit class in 12th grade.

     In my 30s, I did grasp at reproducing Lady Caroline Lamb's famous assessment of Byron as "mad, bad and dangerous to know." I failed mightily. 

     Byron receded in my later life — he doesn't quite go with middle age. No Philip Larkin he. I did not have the good sense that Byron did to die at 36, fighting for Greek independence. Spared himself the sour years. 

     Coward. Being dashing romantic heroes is easy, I imagine. Tougher to be the lone watchmen of Center Avenue, walking the streets in a dead patrol. Smart enough to know that not every day is golden. Some days are February. Some days you get the bear, and some days the bear...

    Actually, Byron left behind a little help here, some bracing words for those of us who are, far later than we should be, still sprawled in the middle of a messy pile the small parts of Life as sold by Ikea, trying to figure out how to put the damn thing together. In an 1821 letter to his biographer, the Irish poet Thomas Moore, Byron recounts how he met a young visitor, who seemed disappointed in meeting a great poet.

   "But I suspect that he did not take quite so much to me, from his having expected to meet a misanthropical gentleman, in wolf-skin breeches, and answering in fierce monosyllables, instead of a man of this world," Byron wrote. "I can never get people to understand that poetry is the expression of excited passion, and that there is no such thing as a life of passion any more than a continuous earthquake, or an eternal fever. Besides, who would ever shave themselves in such a state?"

    Or as I like to think of it, if you ever hope to reach mountaintops, on rare occasions, then you must be willing to spend most of your time plodding up the sides of mountains. Which can be hard, lonely work. But worthwhile nonetheless. Or so I recall.

Rice cakes of the night

Live tilapia at the Super H in Niles.

      Did you have a fun Valentine's Day? I sure hope so. We sure did. My wife bought us a day at King Spa, the sprawling Korean pleasure dome in Niles. The passes were good for the next three months, and I actually hesitated when it came time to go, thinking: "But that means ... I won't be home ... working. Maybe another day..." I contemplated that gambit, then dove in. Let's go!

     When I first visited, over a decade ago, I found that I had difficulty simply lolling. "Can you even loll through force of will?" I wondered, gazing at the clock, champing at the bit to get to the next pool of relaxation.
     Good news. Age hasn't brought wisdom, but it certainly has improved my ability to recline for protracted periods, doing and thinking nothing. Four hours flew by. Very restful. 

    The venue is pretty much the same — the price has doubled in 11 years, from $30 to $60, so it's less of a bargain. But the place was well attended, almost crowded, with the same smorgasbord of humanity — couples, friends, families, individuals, a spectrum of ages and races. The food was excellent. 
      Of course afterward we stopped next door at the Super H, an enormous Asian supermarket, where we wandered the stacked bags of rice, the unwieldy exotic fruit, the wildly enthusiastic boxes of mysterious products. My wife loaded up on mushrooms for a promised mushroom stew. I pondered a half gallon of matcha soy milk, took it, checked the carbs, put it back, then went for it — you only live once! — along with assorted goodies, like little round walnut cakes.   

      I enjoy studying the unusual packaging from other countries. Shorn of familiarity, some seem over-the-top, almost crazed, with their pop-eyed characters shouting nonsense syllables. For some reason the deadpan slogan of a Moon Pie-like Korean product, Choco-Pie, caught my fancy: "It's fluffy." I'll bet it is. Maybe I was just in a good mood. This not working thing — it grows on a person. I could get used to it.

     Then there were the yellow boxes below. Oh my. "Puto" is a male prostitute in Spanish. Though that's more of the sedate definition; it's actually a highly derogatory anti-gay slur. That couldn't be the intention. Back home, a moment's digging showed that, in Tagalog, it's a popular steamed rice cake served with — judging from the photo — a big pad of melty butter on top. Popular in the Philippines. I wonder how their sales to Spanish-speaking countries are? I imagine certain Hispanic men stock it for its camp value, the way I'd put a box of Kike toothpaste in my medicine cabinet if I ever came across such a thing.

Donald Trump is absolutely right ... about the penny

     Why yes, I am a coin collector. Not that I've acquired a new coin in 50 years. But being a coin collector is a permanent condition, like being a Marine. And I still have my pathetic childhood collection of Morgan silver dollars and a fine 1883 "no cents" Liberty nickel, which I can happily expound upon: a Roman numeral "V" on the reverse, but no "cents," so fraudsters would gold plate the nickels and pass them off as $5 gold pieces.

   Scary to consider how much numismatic minutia I jammed into my head between the ages of 10 and 15; even scarier to recognize how much is still there.
     For instance, I don't have to check to know with 100% certainty that the Lincoln penny was introduced in 1909 to mark the centennial of the 16th president's birth, replacing the far prettier Indian Head Penny. Or that it originally had sheaves of wheat and a bold ONE CENT on the back. Replaced in 1959 with the Lincoln Memorial.
     Forget the design. It became clear long ago we shouldn't have pennies at all. The Lincoln cent became a rebuke. A symbol of inertia, aversion to change, everything wrong in our country. Address climate change? We can't even get rid of the penny. Civilized countries — Canada, Australia, Britain — ditched theirs decades back.
     Only in America do we stick with a coin that costs more than three times as much to make than it is worth, not that people spend them much. I wouldn't bend over to pick up a penny. Would you?
     So when Donald Trump paused from vandalizing our government Sunday to kill the penny, it took my breath away. It's a ... good idea — no, a great idea. Who uses coinage of any kind? Or cash, for that matter? About time. Bravo, Mr. President! And I have to say that out loud because the liberal superpower — and curse — is we approach situations rationally and can find value even in those we oppose. This isn't the first accomplishment for Trump — he also fast-tracked the vaccine against COVID-19 after ignoring the pandemic. And others.
     That said, we don't want to make too much of results while ignoring method. If somebody breaks into your house and washes the dishes, it's still a crime. They could steal stuff next time. Given the blizzard of executive orders of questionable legality pouring from the Oval Office, odds are one or two will resonate with most everybody. We are still hurtling toward the abyss. There are too many Americans willing to live in a country where one man is above the law. If he were Donald the Just, issuing commands steeped in the wisdom of Solomon — spoiler alert, he ain't — I'd still be uncomfortable with the change to a country that used to have a powerful Congress and respected courts and unquestioned elections.
     Still. It's a healthy exercise to think positively, even for a moment, about a generally loathsome person. This reminds me of when I was researching Henry Ford a few years ago. You might think of him as the genius who created the Model T and the assembly line, and he was. But Ford was also driven nuts by wealth and success — it didn't start with Elon Musk — and lurched onto the international stage, trying to end the first world war by sponsoring a voyage of peace activists to Europe and becoming a roaring antisemite.

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Migration complete

  

     On Saturday, May 11, 1985 — nearly 40 years ago — I picked up my first computer, a Kaypro 2X. It was considered portable at 22 pounds, and had a handle by which it could be lugged, with effort. I liked the gunmetal gray case; I used to say it was the sort of computer that Army sappers would have dragged ashore in a rubberized bag at Normandy Beach to calculate artillery azimuths if, you know, they did that sort of thing back then. I liked the way the keyboard — a very solid keyboard — folded out of the base. The Apple McIntosh that had just gone on sale the year before seemed, by comparison, cheap and plastic, transparent and toylike. Besides, it had that stupid mouse, which required a hand to be lifted off the keyboard, an idea which, as a touch typist since the 7th grade, I dismissed out of hand.

   I thought of the Kaypro Tuesday, when I took delivery of my latest computer, a new iMac. The Kaypro was an 8-bit machine, while the iMac has 16 gig, or 250,000 times the memory, I am told.  At almost exactly the same price — the Kaypro cost $1650 in 1985; the iMac cost $1495 now, plus $400 tacked on for the 1 terabyte memory I needed to transfer all the crap over from my old machine, including 73,000 photos.

     The old machine is a 2012 model iMac. Honestly, I'd have kept using it forever, or tried to. I'd never have had the courage to replace it — set in my ways. But my wife pointed out, repeatedly, that a 13-year-old computer is not a thing, and with Donald Trump disrupting the international supply chain, along with much else, prices are certain to go up, and I'd better get one. Still, I dithered like Hamlet, placing an order and cancelling it twice. The first time in December, when I realized I'd ordered the wrong keyboard. The second time a couple weeks ago, just out of the sheer stress of making the change while continuing to write a column and breathe air and all the other stresses placed upon me
    But the third time was the charm, as they say. I finally remembered, that if I didn't take my wife's lead, I'd still be a single guy living in a one bedroom apartment in Oak Park. I'm composing my first blog post on now, tapping at its new, perhaps a little stiff keyboard, the same as the old, but cleaner, and with a special round key to receive my right index fingerprint to wake up the computer without need of a password.
     To be honest, I hadn't wanted that Kaypro 2X either — my dream writing instrument was an IBM Selectric II — self-correcting, which would lift up mistakes with a touch of your right pinky. A blue one, so it would rhyme — a baby blue Selectric II. Then again, when I entered First Grade I was nostalgic for kindergarten. 

     Alas, even I could see that technology had thundered past my dreams. Why should manuscripts be cut apart and taped together when you could just shift around electrons on a glowing green screen? Though there was a value to retyping copy, you massaged the material as the words passed from the paper, through your eyes, into your brain and out your fingers.

    I don't remember buying the Kaypro as being particularly traumatic, even though I was earning $14,000 a year at the time as the opinion page editor of the Wheaton Daily Journal. I was also 24, and pushing forward is what one does. What I did, anyway.

    Now I was worried about ... well, lots of things. Getting all the data from the old computer to the new. At first I thought of having the Apple store do it. But that would involve dropping my old computer off for a day or two. Meaning I'd have no computer at all, except a laptop. Then I thought I'd pop $60 for the special lightening cable to connect them. In the end, I let the migration assistant do it through the air. When I first unboxed the new computer and began the process, the migration assistant said the transfer would take 60 hours. But that turned out to be pessimistic — it ended up requiring a little more than six, files flying across the room through the aether from one machine to the other. 

     In between the two machines, how many others? Big boxy Dells, beige plastic monitors shipped from Texas — the ease of return and the consumer service were what kept me a loyal customer. I remember once having three monitors in various states — arriving, being boxed up, sent back. And one long night a technical rep had me on the floor with the back of the computer off, pulling boards out. It somehow got back together.

     Apple swept that away. It started with an iPod, a cool brushed aluminum lozenge with music inside. Just hold it made me proud to be a human being, to belong to the same race who did this. And now I have a laptop and an iPhone, AirPods and this smokin' hot iMac. I never considered any other brand.

     The point, Neil, you must be straining. Get to the point. I think the point should be clear — with all the transferring data from old iMac to new, and the getting the fonts just right and downloading apps I couldn't run because my machine was so old, I didn't have time to think of a proper post. This will have to do.

     The Kaypro is still in the basement, wrapped in plastic. I keep it, not as a potentially valuable relic of the early consumer computer era — I see on eBay you can pick one up for a couple hundred dollars — but just in case I need to read something off those boxes of floppy discs I also have stashed somewhere. You never know.

    For now, I've left the old one set up, on the roll top desk behind me, — purchased with paper route money when I was 14, because a writer needs a roll top desk. Where I imagine it'll stay for a few weeks, as a backup, until it starts getting in the way, and will go into a plastic bag and into the basement next to the Kaypro, which hasn't been opened for nearly 40 years. Better safe than sorry.