Sunday, June 29, 2014

Family ties, literally


     "At least I brought my shoes home."
     Spoken with a certain defensiveness, almost a note of pride. Hey, cut me some slack dad, I've got the shoes.
      Time: 11:15  p.m. Maybe 11:30. Earlier this week.
      Place: our living room in the leafy suburban paradise of Northbrook. At dinnertime, our 18-year-old former high school senior, on the cusp of heading off to college, had announced that he and some pals would be eating their dinner at Prairie Grass, Sarah Stegner and Rohit Nambiar's excellent restaurant.
      Some kind of two-for-one burger special had caught their frugal teenage eye. Kids like bargains. 
      That was 7 p.m. After 11, we started to worry. A long time for dinner. A text went unanswered. Finally we got the word: at his pal Jacob's.
     Whew.
      So now he's back, sprawled on the coffee table—a sturdy coffee table, he's comfortable there—and a thought strikes him.
     "Oh," he says to me. "I left your tie at Jacob's house."
      My boy works a summer job in a law office downtown. He owns no ties of his own—well, a brown bar mitzvah tie, but that's it. Rather than go out and equip him with a new tie wardrobe he might never again need—not a lot of call for tie-wearing in California—he just uses mine, which is fine; I hardly wear them anymore myself. So I wasn't distraught by the news one had gone off reservation. Okay, you left my tie at Jacob's. Just bring it back, eventually.
      Though a troubling thought did bubble up. I didn't suspect it so much as say it as a kind of minor punishment.
     "Was it because I asked you to hang them up this morning?" I asked, half seriously. Yesterday's tie —a red paisley—had ended up a crumpled ball next to the computer in the living room. I had meekly hung it up, but while doing so pointed out that the least he could do is return the things he borrows. I mean, as it is, I have to tie them for him, which is already an indefensible paternal indulgence. He's 18. Not only do I tie the tie, but I then have to slip it around his neck and tighten it, quickly tucking the tie under the back collar; the hardest part, I can tell. There's some tactile discomfort and I try to get it over as fast as possible while he tries not to twist away. To be honest, I kinda like the process. There really isn't anything much else he needs me to do for him anymore; pay the bills and shut up. So the tie business is really the last vestige of physical parenting, of snapping on rompers and pulling on little socks and wiping his nose. A long time coming, as they say, it'll be a long time gone. Maybe he feels that way too, deep down, because every time I suggest he let me teach him how to tie a tie for the love of God, he waves the idea away. Soon but not now.
    What's so hard about tying ties? Not to get all back-in-the-day, but I learned how to tie a tie because I was playing Mr. Darling in the Camp Wise production of "Peter Pan," so not only had to tie it properly, at age 15, but tie it properly onstage in front of 200 people, while reciting lines. "This tie, it will not tie, not round my neck. Round the bedpost, yes, 10 times I've tied it around the bedpost...."
    Or words to that effect It's been almost 40 years. My dad didn't teach me, he was 100 miles away. I don't remember who did; maybe I figured it out myself.
    Anyway, it struck me that, instead of returning it to the tie rack in my bedroom closet as requested, like a decently-raised son would do, he hadn't even returned it to our home. Perhaps even vindictively. The tie was across town, no doubt crumbled in a ball beside Jacob's computer.
     I cast him a doleful look.
     "At least I brought my shoes home," he said, earnestly, sincerely.  That brightened my mood immediately. I'm not sure where that came from—perhaps from the fact that he carried them. Black Oxford wing tips, no doubt uncomfortable as midnight approached, so kicked them off as he ... what did the boys do again? Oh right, poker and ping pong. I looked at him closely. Sober. Alive. Returned under his own power with no intercession from the police necessary. One should count one's blessings.
     "Well, try to get the tie back from Jacob at some point."
     Though to be honest, it is a purple tie with yellow bursts on it. I don't know what madness had gripped me to buy it in the first place. I haven't worn it in years, and probably will never wear it again. If he had dumped the tie in the trash and never told me I'd have never missed it. But he doesn't have to know that.
     Oh, and he brought the tie home a few days later, leaving it for me to find in a crumpled ball on the coffee table. I wordlessly hung it up. I'm going to miss that.



8 comments:

  1. My college roommate taught me how to tie a tie (half Windsor, I believe), though I cannot for the life of me remember the context of why that was necessary freshman year in Iowa City.

    But I'll never forget how simple it ended up being after I had put so much stock/fear into tying one myself for so long. Even today, over a decade later (and having to wear ties on a semi-regular basis), I catch myself muttering "over, under, over, up and through" as I, ahem, tie one on.

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    1. Oddly, I'm the opposite. I can't explain it in words. I can only do it. It's like flipping a coin. You don't think, "Okay, set the coin on my thumb..."

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  2. My son is 23 and still can't do it himself. Once my husband stood behind him trying to tie my son's tie (why are they called "ties" anyway) while looking in a mirror -- couldn't do it. The more he tried to think of the correct way, the more he fumbled it. It was one hilarious moment, I should have posted it on Youtube.

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  3. I didn’t learn how to tie a necktie until I was 28-years-old. I can pinpoint that age because instructions from tie-a-tie.net remain taped inside my closet door. Today, at 36, I can tie a necktie quickly and with good results. I just can’t muster the energy to pull those loosely taped instructions off that closet door.

    As a younger man I had to rely on my father for occasions that required a tie. The discomfort of wearing those ties equaled the feeling of asking my old man for any kind of help. He was a remarkably difficult guy. We never got along. Asking him to tie my tie probably feels like asking a stranger for money.

    My father passed away in the summer of 2000, a few months shy of his 57th birthday. In the days leading up to his death I remember giving thought to what I’d do about a tie for the funeral. When that moment finally came all I could think to do was sheepishly ask an uncle for help. Strangely I remember little else about the day.

    I haven’t worn that funeral tie in fourteen years. I’ll probably never wear it again. And yet, like those loosely taped instructions, it manages to hold a place in my closet.

    Perhaps we should trade – my funeral for your purple and yellow. Whattaya say, Neil?

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  4. Crikey Neil, bring that young man to JCrew, for ya'll your haberdashery and necktie needs. Look modern, feel modern. Now me's firing' up the sun lamp, this mild summer gots my Sheila all tied up.

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  5. Sorry if this goes through twice...

    This is why we have YouTube! Perfect for simple how-to lessons. Every Mariano's employee learned how to tie a necktie, and most of them learned through YouTube!

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  6. My dad taught me to tie a tie by standing next to me in front of a mirror and showing me how he did it. To this day, I can't tie a tie without standing in front of a mirror; my father assured me that he couldn't either. At college graduation, it transpired that I was the only guy in the house who could tie a tie, so I had to tie everyone else's by tying it on myself, take it off by slacking the knot, and giving it to each prospective graduate.

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  7. Nice story but too bad clip ties aren't considered good form. ;)

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